TODAY!!!

In an instant, before I could breathe, the news pierced my ears and disturbed my mind.

My days were perfect knowing you were always close by, today feels like a train wreck, I didn't get to say good-bye.

I know pain, I have fought against deception & adversity before, but this one grapples the soul;

My heart tells me it's not true, my mind struggles to accept the possibilities, I don't care, what

they say, where do I find you!

Your favorite coffee is still brewing, your mail is on the kitchen counter, our children are waiting at the door and our dog is barking hysterically.

I'm still holding on to your promises, we have unfinished plans to achieve, how do I accept this reality, you're never coming home to me.

The road for healing & restoration seems too tedious, I'm not prepared for this journey.

I feel, as if I was, abandoned in a desert without food or water, the sun is unusually hot Today.

I never imagined the earth could stop rotating but Today it has become frozen in time, where do I draw my strength, who can I share my tears, please… please not Today!

Condolences are full of respect, care & love but words are empty without your joy in my life.

Tomorrow is just, hours away but I will never let go of my grasp, Today.

Lord, Lord I know your word says to give up my burdens, concerns & sorrows but my knees are weak and it's getting harder to breath.
I have no time for religion, are you real or not!

My heart is bleeding and I have no more strength to talk.

I need the peacemaker because my walls have tumbled down. I need the healer because my heart is damaged and left bleeding.

I need, most of all, the comforter because, I have been robbed of love. And Today I need my redeemer & my deliverer.

Done in love, by Rabakk ...
(Victory in the Wilderness)